ooooh ohpraah

yo. hey. what up blog world?

so... ya. maybe its the baileys in my coffee or the oprah's lifeclass tonight but if feel the urge to type... and i stumbled back on to blogger so it must be meant to be.

what the hell happened? why is it that life can carry you along.. that happy path.. you know where you almost feel like your in a bliss because finally things are going.. well? and then smack. your kicked back down. now, i'm trying to understand this whole 'believe it and you can achieve it' shit and i've been trying to "practice" this life for a while now. i think that's how i started blogging in the beginning. but im in this shitty loop. life goes well, life floats, life seems great. and then somebody decides to toss in a speed bump on the 401 and all you can do is yell.. fuck!?!
so. when is it going to give? when am i getting out of this loop?

granted, i have learned some lessons in this loop.
like one: stop having kids. 2 is enough and my sanity snaps when the noise level hits a certain point. so i had the bull castrated and i have no regrets. i can be an aunt to many little sweethearts and as soon as im done i just hand them back and drive home.

wait a second.... oprah is live?!?!?!


sorry blogger..
i will be back.. later.

im having an affair

im sorry blogger.... but i've left you for pinterest....

find me...@leahreadman

ya that's right... new name.. official wife!

big news! we got married!!

yup.. that's right.. we finally did it!
took us 14 years of happily un-wedded bliss to finally just say 'lets do it!'
and that we did..

so it was planned in about 4 weeks.. just us and the kids.
we finally went on that weekend trip to ottawa that we have wanted to do for years, and we married on parliament hill on an early saturday morning.
perfect, simple, slightly chaotic, but done...
about an hour after the ceremony, and walking back to our hotel to change out of hot dress clothes.. i just paused in the middle of our hotel room and announced "i should have married you in my pajamas in this hotel room, i should have married you in my jeans in the kitchen beside the coffee maker. i would have been more comfortable and happier in the moment. i should have married you years ago"
and i think at that moment it finally began to sink in what we had done.. we were happy, but the kids were insane and driving us bonkers, so it was very very hard to enjoy the moment that had just happened. so i told him he owes me a vow renewal in 5-10 years.. :)

the firestorm that happened once we got back wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. family was all happy for us and most figured we would do it that way anyways.
so the party planning begins.. just a simple little bbq at our place for all to come and drink and be merry... married. :)

you are all welcome to join us.. if you can find me

where have you been? over the hill and under a mountain

hmm.. well ive taken an extended break from blogging, and i'm not announcing my official return but i just needed the break.
i was on a path to .... positive. trying to change my way of thinking and my attitude, so i felt like blogging had to go. it was too easy of a place to rant and explode diarrhea of negative crap all over and well.. feel good about it. but well.. it wasn't doing anything good. it wasn't helping any situations or healing any issues. so i quit.
i wrote a gratitude list and then i wrote a goals and wants list. and then i quit the idea of working and took the summer off to be with the kids. i had one of those 'a-ha!' moments that oprah always talked about. i was laying on a picnic blanket watching the kids play in a splash pad and something just kinda clicked... this is my moment now. enjoy this peace now.
and i did. and i quit looking for change and just began enjoying what was happening right in front of me. and almost like magic, all the pieces of life began to come together.
life is good. kids are great. my man is wonderful.
and in 10 days, something i have been waiting 14 years for is going to happen.... im over the moon thrilled, but its a big surprise. so everybody must wait. :)

the summer is nearing to the end.. i can feel it. the nights are cooler, the tomatoes are growing full force, the sunflowers are blooming and my hydrangea collections are full of massive amazing blooms. its my favorite time of year.. its still summer but cool enough to feel like fall.. that edge of change.
and i am full of change.

the past two weeks i've been crazy with change.. 1. the big surprise 2. changing the house, room by room 3. kids bedrooms re-decorate 4. renos 5. purging clothing 6. returning to work....

yup back to work. i said i would come school time, but the summer funds ended slightly short of the school season so i'm back just a day or two until school begins.. so i plan to work 3 days.. the days evan is in school.. my sweet boy in school. work will be a good thing for me, i need some sense of worth outside of home again. not that i feel worthless, but i feel like i need to put my brain back on some sort of level above the age of 3.
back to the cottage design and build world.. i'm going to try it.. i'm going to tell myself i love it, just like i use to.

so what else? i've been garden obsessed, re-decorate obsessed and general change obsessed.. oh and what else am i obsessing over? Pinterest! oh hallelujah! what a spectacularly amazing thing... find me follow me and let me see what your ideas are filled with! search leah skidmore i'm there!

so, i hope you have all had an amazing summer and i hope to read about all of yours!

thanks for sticking with me!

leah

hello blog world.

well.....
here we are.. hi. im leah. i'm back. i think. for a moment at least.

life got a little crazy.. so i quit this. i quit to take mental break.

im not back in my brain yet, but i thought i would quickly drop in to say hello!
sooo


Hello.

i wanted to let you know, im still reading your blogs.. i have kept up with the most of you and i'm thrilled with all your amazing energy to keep on posting, sharing, and giving.

i think i missed my own 1 year anniversary..
oh well.. i have to add this....
life is awesome.

no i'm not trying to be all cool and corney or a hippy. so shut the fuck up.
i'm just trying to say..... with all the crap ive been handed this year, i've been able to wake up and say. life.is.awesome.
and those words have made it all better....

i hope to return here soon. and maybe i'll tell you about it.

for now. the kids are good, still destructive and still making me go to the dentist more than i should. life is on the mend... and the garden looks fabulous.
but.. allison is now colouring on something in the living room..i can hear it. its not paper... gotta go!



:)

again, my apologies at totally sucking with new posts.
i have a cold/sinus infection/lost my sanity problem that doesn't seem to be easing up.
and of course.. instantly.. i sit down here and little miss decides she wants all 110% of my attention and starts crying.. can you hear it??
and the boy is serving the last 45 seconds of his hour long stay in his room... soooo i'll be back to blogging after i explain to him why again, for the one hundredth time..

easter? huh? what? where was i?

my apologies,
i've been a bit of a crappy blogger lately.
i blame easter and the late arrival of spring.

every moment i have available im trying to get outside with the kids.. play, walk, and do yard work. i'm over anxious for gardening and i'm planning out my beds.
how i love this time of year, so much excitement for change.

easter was beyond hectic. i don't even know what happened.. what i did.. or where i was. i have to look at pictures to recall. and by the 4th large family meal on monday evening i had to quit. i just couldn't go, i was beat and skipped it. sent andrew and evan while allison and i napped. i even called into work today too. yesterday was nice to have the peaceful day of working alone but coming home my house now needs me. andrew is gone and the kids need a solid day at home in their jammies.. thank goodness for rain days. i welcome them more than others im sure.

why do we do this? why do we stretch ourselves so thin for holiday weekends like this? can we skip them? can we stretch them into 3 weeks? so overwhelming. i envy people who live far away from their families and can create their own holiday weekend traditions.. ....dreams.


my brother took the boys for a kayak adventure before easter dinner... it was even peaceful just to watch